The effect of change

Things have changed a lot over the past couple of months. I know I say that all the time but get ready to read a completely philosophical and most personal blogpost till date. I'm kind of glad that I didn't distribute my blog to a lot of people; only a handful of individuals that I am really, really close with. That makes it all the more easier to vent out feelings in words that are hard to express otherwise.

So please, I would respect that if you happen to stumble upon this post/blog by a misfortunate turn of clicks, keep it to yourself. Thank you.

I actually planned to post something in December but I don't really know what happened, just like all the other drafts that I have created.

I will probably ramble on topics that I have no idea about. I feel like doing this cause in two years, when I finish school and about to depart to Uni, I can read all this and smile/laugh at my misfortunes just like I am now with the posts before I moved to Dubai. Hopefully I will feel different later on. This is about to get pretty sad then probably, if I can I'll finish it on a happy note.

You can learn a lot of things in 6/7 months. People will come, people will go. Some people will change how they perceive you and some will just slowly fade away. It's hard to notice the changes as you're in it, but one day you look back and you think to yourself, "damn I used to talk to this person everyday, what happened?". It happens and the worst is to try and rekindle your relationship back to its original form.

Some people just come out of nowhere. You become close in times when you least expect it and it changes you. It makes you feel a whole lot better, confident and assured that if something goes wrong down the line, there is someone to hold your back. But things change, people change. But the question you always are stuck on is: is it for the better or worse? Better. Always. As hard as it is to fathom.

Things will always come round to being better, no matter how bad or shit the situation is right now. I mean, it should right? (or whatever I've been telling myself the past couple weeks is worthless). I believe that all the problems and mishaps we face currently do not affect us in the future; it is close to nil. I can tell you cause I don't remember the things I felt shit about 2 years ago. And two years from now, I will only remember if I read this blog again. But I do agree, it is a shit situation to be in currently.

I don't even know why I'm blogging right now. I have 22 exams in a month and I've barely read over half the exams. Yet I feel that I update it sooner before I do forget. Which I probably will.

Anyway, to look on the bright side, I got a prom date! And she's pretty. So I need to go hunt for a proper suit.

I actually feel like blogging more often so I will probably try and update it a couple times, for myself. I don't think anyone keeps up with my blog. So it's just for literally a handful of people.

And let's keep it that way.

P.S. So during the summer I talked to a really cool and genuinely interesting person that also has a blog. Please check it out here. I hope she doesn't kill me if she finds out. Her writing is over ten folds better than mine and much, much more insightful. If you've come this far, maybe you redeem a free eye bleach for the horrible grammar in my post and head over to hers.